My story

Hi!

My name is Mikaela David and I am on a quest to ascend from the very distressing situation I am in.

I am 28 years old, single, an academician, the daughter of a single mother, eldest of three sisters and a businesswoman at heart. I also am a visionary.

My situation all started when I got into several big loans to start an online business three years ago. I thought of going into business when I was one of the many people who lost their jobs to the recession. Unfortunately I wasn't able to recover from my initial investment, and that's when things got all messed up.

I did my homework in business. I wasn't one of the gals who were impulsive about a business idea and suddenly jumped into it. That is just too risky. I covered all bases- capital, skill, marketing, etc. Being young and excited at my first chance to really prove my self, I got blinded by positive thinking away from being realistic. I soon realized that to pump in more clients to the company, I needed more capital- and that I couldn't afford, even if i was utilizing guerrilla tactics. Like a fish in a tank drained of water, the business soon died and left with it a landscape of debt, unpaid bills, trauma, blame, and so on and so forth.

For several months I was in shock. I lost my will to live and came to a point when I contemplated on suicide. See, the business was like my first child, and it died several moments after birth. It was also supposed to be the ticket of my family to a much more abundant life (not the mega rich kind, but the comfortable kind). I was too depressed to care about life and just didn't see the point in living anymore. Until one day, I got up and decided that it ain't over 'til the fat lady sings, or til i'm six feet under, or whatever. I had to either move, or simply die without a fight. So after much contemplation, i've decided to enter the academic profession.

Teaching is fun and very fulfilling, but the pay is not good- especially if you're in a developing country. My salary just isn't enough to pay for rent, food, other bills, repaying loans, etc. And so every payday, nothing is left for saving as everything goes down the drain. To help me out with the necessities, I had to let my two younger sisters stop their college education to work. Overall, this is not a sustainable lifestyle and is definitely not the way to live. A cloud hangs over me every second of my life, reminding me of the many liabilities I had to neutralize. I could choose to run away from them, but I am a woman of my word! I will fulfill all my obligations, period!

The guilt of not being able to sustain my sisters' education also takes its toll on me. Being in an asian country, the culture usually dictates that the eldest bears the burden of ensuring the well being of the family, in the absence of the father. Although not said, the silent consensus is I am to blame for the degradation of our family's quality of living.

I really do hope that the time will soon come that I may finally get over my loans, send my sisters back to school, and that I may get a second and final shot at establishing the family business. Feel free to join me in my quest to overcome the biggest challenge in my life so far- to raise money for a bail out from life's extreme smack at my face.